Life. Today it is.

As a current update, life is definatley changed more than ever expected. I now am a sophomore at Kirkwood Community College studying Business Management with an emphasis in Human Resource management. I work 2 jobs and am no longer dating Dalton. My views toward many things have changed, but that is a whole other chapter. Enough of the boring stuff...


So August 23, 2011 my father got an OWI. Not seeming to be a big deal to some, but kind of a "cry" for help it seems. As for those who don't know my father at all, he has been on this roller coaster for God since he was a teen. With a lot of very high ups and some very low downs, my dad is who he is. Recently, he seemed to be on a "Jesus high", He went to church every Sunday, got involved in a men's ministry, and even met a lot of new new people at church and hung out outside the congregation. With all that "good" he seemed to kind of resit the church and fall to temptation of meeting girls and getting drunk at bars. He is legally still a married man, so you see my dilemma. My mother moved out of the house in November of 2010, ever since then my dad was "getting his life together" he claimed. He definatley had some weak points, as we all do. Don't get me wrong, he is a great man that loves the Lord. Just sometimes he gets a little confused. Since my mom left, he had also purchesed a memebership to the local Y and lost 15 pounds. Somthing he never thought he could do, and is keeping the weight off. The kicker you ask? He counters all this good with so much bad. I could for see this OWI, that sounds terrible, but it was bound to happen. He liked to drink and meet people, one of the ways he could open up..
The worst part of this whole situation in my opinion--he is pushing me away and blaming my mom. Which I hope it's clear to you as it is to me, that this is all entirely his responsibility and no ones fault but his own...





This life goes on each and everyday, more is sure to come, for now.. I have said my peace.

Nothing without Jesus, all for HIS Glory
~Rachel

The weekend-a plethora of exciting things. :/

There always seems to some sort of Bad with all the Good that happens in life. It's like they are drawn to each other. Many things seem to either be snow balling or going up and down in my life. The Good-of course I love. The Bad-is not just bad, it's horrible. (Which I guess is a bias opinion.)

The best thing of the weekend was the NEW Justin Bieber Movie-Never Say Never <3
I really don't care what anyone else has to say about him or his sexuality-which is straight by the way. The kid is a phenomenal human being. He cares, he loves, he has God given talent that I am glad he shares with the world. His story is heart touching. His family, is supportive and loving in every way. He is a very blessed human being. I am happy for the kid. He's a star, currently he is 16 and one of the biggest sensations in the world.
FACTS:
Justin Drew Bieber
Born March 1, 1994-On a Tuesday
 Worth: $66.5 Million Dollars
STUD

The Bad:
This weekend, a friend of mine informed me that one of my former best friends started a rumor about me.. This was kind of hard to believe, so like a good person I confirmed this statement with the accused. Turns out, the rumor had been started and the girl admitted to it instantly. Things like this make it so hard to trust the world. Getting pushed aside, shit on, treated like dirt, made fun of..only lasts for so long. I for one am sick of it. I have never been so hurt by someone then I was this past Friday night. It's one thing to make fun of a hair cut-not saying it's right-never the less..Some people don't know when to stop and many lines were crossed.

Regaurdless:
I am a bigger person. I am more respectful. I have the decency to look out for others and their feelings. It's painful. But life goes on, and God still loves each and everyone of us no matter what we do.

~LOVE~
Love is...
Patient, kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, it's not rude or self seeking. It is not easily angered and keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
1 Corinthians 13:4-6

Life changes so so much..

November 4, 2010. Not that long ago, yet seems like it has been years. Since then many things have changes. Things I thought were good and blessed by God, have gone down the drain. Friends have gone, relationships have started and school has once again begun and in full force. Writing about all that has happened in the past 3 months is not an option...I would be writing for days.




The feelings I have right now have no word to describe them. I have so many questions. So many thoughts.
Will we ever have the same beliefs?
Will we ever feel the same about life and what to make of it?
If I gaurd my heart, I will never be loved. When I put it out there..I feel like it's going to get crushed.
Too much..